Bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu do\u011far d\u00fcnyaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elleri minik, g\u00f6zleri maviyi and\u0131ran renkte g\u00fczel. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 sar\u0131, ka\u015flar\u0131 hafiften kavisli. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda masumiyeti and\u0131ran, kendini hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmas\u0131na gerek olmadan sevdiren bebek. Kirpikleri uzun, ayaklar\u0131 tombul. A\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda annesinin tedirgin oldu\u011fu, ne derdi var diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bebek. Babas\u0131n\u0131n ilk g\u00f6z a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011finden alamaz kendisini. \u0130lk ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 atar sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f. Arada d\u00fc\u015fer, dengesiz kal\u0131nca. Ama tutarlar ellerinden her zaman. Dizleri ac\u0131r, bir s\u00fcre ovu\u015fturur annesi. Sonra da \u00fcfler ac\u0131s\u0131 dinsin diye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00fcy\u00fcr g\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e. G\u00fcn do\u011fduk\u00e7a. Sevgi g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e. Sonra… Sonra bir \u015fey olur. Tek bir \u015fey. Anlam veremez, alg\u0131layamaz nedenini. Herkes gider yay\u0131ndan. Uzakla\u015f\u0131r. B\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e silinir t\u00fcm d\u00fcnya. Ve tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yere d\u00fc\u015fer sonunda. Herkes d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda mutluyken o, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerde. D\u00f6n\u00fcp dola\u015f\u0131r bulamaz yolunu. Herkesin gemisi y\u00fczerken etraf\u0131nda, o k\u0131z\u0131n gemisini bat\u0131rmak i\u00e7in bekleyenler vard\u0131r kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. Kinlenir art\u0131k. Nefretlenir. Duygusuzla\u015f\u0131r. Sab\u0131rs\u0131zla\u015f\u0131r. Merhametini kaybeder. Ve yolunu da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendi kendine bir yol bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Bulur da kendince. Ama orada ta\u015fl\u0131 olan ne varsa yok etmek i\u00e7in tekme atar durur etraf\u0131na. Sava\u015f\u0131 ile y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yollarla de\u011fil, kendisine yenilir hep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cKendi y\u00fcre\u011fine harp ilan edersen e\u011fer, yaralanmadan \u00e7\u0131kamazs\u0131n o sava\u015ftan<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Muzaffer bir galip olsan da, sonunda yenilen kalbindir asl\u0131nda\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yenildi o k\u0131z da y\u00fcre\u011fine her seferinde. Yok olup giden babas\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 bulamad\u0131. Yan\u0131ndan \u00e7ekip giden annesini hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131. Onu sevmeyen ablas\u0131n\u0131 asla g\u00f6rmedi. Beyaz \u00fclkelerde gezdi\u011fini zannetti. Halbuki ge\u00e7ti\u011fi yollar y\u0131lanalar ile doluydu. Ad\u0131m att\u0131\u011f\u0131 her anda soktular k\u0131z\u0131. Hissetmedi bile \u00f6fkesinden ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131. Her yeri kan ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f, hala d\u00fc\u015fman sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 ta\u015flarla bo\u011fu\u015fuyordu. Damarlar\u0131na zehir enjekte etti hep y\u0131lanlar. K\u00f6pekler sald\u0131rd\u0131 sonra t\u00fcm salyalar\u0131yla. Kediler \u00e7izdi teninin her yerini. Kargalar tiftiklemeye bile ba\u015flad\u0131lar art\u0131k etlerini. Bir \u00f6nemi yoktu art\u0131k. Yorgun, bitkin bir haldeydi. Ve \u00f6l\u00fcmle ba\u015f ba\u015fayd\u0131 art\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kim ki o? K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken ayaklar\u0131 tombul olan o k\u0131z m\u0131yd\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00e2l\u00e2 korkan, h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00fclen sevimli k\u0131z. Kitaplar\u0131 ne \u00e7ok severdi oysa. Hepsi y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Her bir yazar\u0131n ad\u0131 silinmi\u015f kapaklardan. G\u00fclmeyi severdi o. G\u00fczeldi g\u00fclmek \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Ama hasretti i\u015fte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Art\u0131k g\u00fclemezdi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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FOTO\u011eRAF: Dilber SANCAK<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu do\u011far d\u00fcnyaya. Elleri minik, g\u00f6zleri maviyi and\u0131ran renkte g\u00fczel. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 sar\u0131, ka\u015flar\u0131 hafiften kavisli. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda masumiyeti and\u0131ran, kendini hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmas\u0131na gerek olmadan sevdiren bebek. Kirpikleri uzun, ayaklar\u0131 tombul. A\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda annesinin tedirgin oldu\u011fu, ne derdi var diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bebek. Babas\u0131n\u0131n ilk g\u00f6z a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011finden alamaz kendisini. \u0130lk ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 atar sonra […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":176,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_themeisle_gutenberg_block_has_review":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-175","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-deneme"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/KIZ-COCUGU-DILBER-SANCAK.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/175","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=175"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/175\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":177,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/175\/revisions\/177"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/176"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=175"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=175"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tahtafikiredebiyat.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=175"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}